Thursday, July 17, 2008
My soon to be ex is doing much better than he was. He is in treatment for his addictions, which makes him much easier to get along with. It's funny that we are getting along better now than we have in years.
His off again on again girlfriend is on again. She seems to show back up everytime Jim and I are getting along, like she is afraid we might get back together again or something. Not really sure what to think about her. She's nice enough, and no longer tears my soul apart, since I really have no desire left to remain married to Jim, no matter how well we get along.
I can't help wondering what would have happened if he had went into treatment 2 years ago, instead of moving in with an AA buddy and taking up with that buddy's neice. We had a good marraige once, but then some people tell me what I thought was good wasn't even that good.
I have to trust God and the Spirit to guide me. I know they are in charge and have a plan, even if I don't always understand it. I never thought I could survive alone, and I have and am. I am stronger and happier now than I have been in a very long time. There is hope.
This is cool...we should never forget it, even when it doesn't always go right...
My endless divorce is still endless..... I keep thinking I see and end in sight, and then it gets put off more. I think Jim is finally seeing that it needs to happen. He says he is getting the paperwork together he needs.... I hope he really is... I am soooo very tired of it.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
The Dilemma of Obedience, VerseVisions Art; 1 Samuel 3:15, originally uploaded by Marketseq.
This beautiful piece of art reminds me that God is in charge of everything, including my "endless divorce", which will end, in His time.